Something good happened in the workplace and I guess I don't have to end up burning weekends consecutively anymore. So that's good. I was expecting hell to come by once I return to my workplace, but I guess this kind of tones down the hellishness of the situation.
Sometimes life throws you little treats, little boons when you least expect, and these things can be a real morale booster. :)
I bought a new wallet, and I was going on about transferring stuff from the old, knobbly one to the new one. After discarding the one-inch thick worth of old receipts and IOUs to loansharks, I started checking the cards, and I found...
My ex-girlfriend's picture!
(FYI, it was a year since I broke up, due to her pursuit of studies in UK)
It's quite funny, these little things that reminds me about the attached life before which I now even doubt that I ever had. Back in school, everything was so much more innocent and clear cut before we actually came in touch with stuff like clubbing and work stress and alcohol and office politics and this and that. Looking at this picture I've come to realise a few things:
She'd probably not do that pose anymore now, and probably won't go to botanic gardens either. Probably if I updated this picture it's be in some club with smoke and too white skin due to flash. (Note: she used to DESPISE the mere THOUGHT of clubbing) Okay so I'm being a little too exaggerating about the club thing, but I feel like I'm looking at a memory of a person rather than the actual person herself.
Environments change people, and as people we have to adapt to suit the environment to survive. As a result a lot of us end up throwing away what was innate in us to do so. I cannot imagine myself being once again, the JC student that I was, nor anything than what I am now. But sometimes it's really scary when you haven't seen someone for so long, and she comes back a different person.
A person whom that picture fails to capture anymore.
Sure, it's a part of growing up and moving on and whatnot.
But not so ... fast?
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i so understand u babe.. ahahah
ReplyDeletei feel the same way too.. like i dun think im the same person i was when im in jc or even in rv days.. but then again.. i think its all about growing up? when we get more exposed to the 'real world' we start to realise tat ppl we know r actualli not so naive n innocent anymore. actualli.. theres just a devil in everyone one of us waiting to come out.. ahaha n mine is already 50% there..oh gosh.. i hope i haven lose too much of the 'yirong-ness' in me yet =) n i hope u nv lose that person in u too.. well.. i still enjoy that ever silly n idiotic yuan jie i hav known for like 8 years? cheers to sisterhood yo.. ahahah dun think too much. i believe we all change in certain ways when we get older.. just that everyone is different..
anw.. you have been a wonderful 'date of the day'! congrats! u made it into the top ten list =)